okay i know its my fault for coming home late..haiz, but why must you control my life?? why must you make things worse? argh!!! aku macam nak maki!! aku tkle tahan kat rumah!!! asyik kene control je!!! ape ni, stop it sia please la, always think you're right and im always wrng..never even bother to listen my views, even once..kau tak pernah kesah sal ape aku buat, kau tak pernah kesah ape jadi ngn hidup aku,kau tak pernah ambil tau sal pelajaran aku,kau selalu fikir aku salah, aku bodoh. okay fine! im stupid k, happy?! kalau aku menyusahkan kan kau, lebih baik biarkan aku keluar rumah kn kalau aku nak balik rumah ke tak kau tk payah kesah!
skg kau expect aku balik sekolah by 6 plus, kau pikir boleh pe? kalau tak ramai org la. aku kat sekolah belajar pe, aku tak sebodoh yang kau sangka kn ok! dengan anak sendiri ckp bodoh, you think you're so smart??!
Astaghfirullah hal azim....

yes i know my previous past post are like emo shit? or maybe making you feel creepy about it..(bulu roma ternaik) its just that i dont know how to let things out and put it in a better form..im not used to it..
maybe because of all that they think im desperate..haiz..im just trying to let things out..
people keep on saying, cheer up, relax. They said they understand how you feel, but i dont think so..its not that easy..especially when you're trying to make things look normal..hiding your real emotions..
\haiz, i'll just continue find ways to cheer me up, and just keep on smiling..being emo is so not me...hmm..

oh well, i know i've been acting as if im desperate and obsessed for ya..well hell no! i may have fallen for you but not till that extend. does not mean im not okay its about you. well things have not been good lately, and i'm really trying my best to absorb what happen, slowly adjusting and digest it..haiz..
i shall not care what they said about being desperate etc etc, they dont know how i feel deep down insde and what happen lately...

you are not giving me any chances to at least talk about it. do you even know what i'm feeling? i feel like fool at times waiting for you to reply my msges..cant you at least reply me and not making me wait and start making nonsensical assumption..is it so hard for you to type few words and click on send? haiz...
you feel hanging? then what about me? you think im not? can't you see what you're doing is hurting me, huh?
if only you know....

Okay i just woke up and i still have not bath:P
 well yesterday went to civic centre with abizer,aisyah and alvin after Maths UT. Woah i spent my time with the As name:P  Abizer treat us frappe, i feel bad, and i wanted to pay but he insist..oh well i just accept it then. Thank you abizer:)
 I think i'm used to having you ard, spending time with you..
the weird thing is that i think im addicted to your smell..its like where i go, sometimes theres your smell, and it reminds me of you..
I like everything abt you..well i cnt deny tht i cant stop talking to you..i guess you know me too well..
~FArah~

I dont know what's going on now, but I'm just going with the flow....






I feel so demoralised..really bad..my communication was so badly done..E grade is a bad grade..
i may look calm about it..but deep down inside..i really feel disappointed about it..especially when communication is the main subject and I have to pass. In fact all of the module i must pass..haiz....i dont know what to do now...

just a kiss in your lips in the moonlight~

i still remember, on my day..you came back up and bought for me tim tam even though you knew that you are late for your talk....
one of my wish is you...
you text me this "tapi kite nak awak tau betape istimewanye awak kepada kite:)"..do you know that you are really sweet..you made day..
but now, it bothers me to think if you mean what you said..hmm well i hope you do..
well i'm just trying to let my feelings out..
~Farah~

I dreamt of you...

Morning!!
I'm in school right now:)
i thought i wont be talking to him..but yea we did..it was a little awkward at first, but i decided to break the ice..if not neither of us would talk..
reach woodland inter about 7:20 plus. so i waste my time at the interchange and decided to buy something at Mr Bean shop:)
Went school with Faizal, my silat friend. Well somehow or rather he brightens up my morning, well at least i wont start my day with a sad feeling.
I wonder....
will we ever be like how we used to be?
are we going to be close after the next semester?
i can only pray and hope that each day everything will be alright..

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haiz..i still remember one of my friend said that i'm like desperate for you..well it kinda hurt me..but i tried not to show it as i dont wanna make him feel guilty..its just that you really mean a lot to me..no one is able to know what i'm feeling right now, no not you, not them but only God.....

TWINNY!! i really miss us..i miss laughing so hard w you..i miss talking and having wild imaginations w you..its so not me when all this is no longer there..i miss taking bus home and talking non stop w you..i just want to see you smile..haiz...i just want the old us..i miss those moments...
i miss you..
~Farah~

All i ever want was to hear the truth from you..




I miss twinny..i miss talking like before..

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